I have recently found out that my primary computer has crashed. CRASHED! Of course we still have the den computer, my mother’s laptop and my father’s laptop, but I am still crushed. The thought of loosing all of my pictures, documents, and software could prove fatal. I have learned from this distressful situation, how similar to the characters from the book I am. I am just as paranoid, fearful and annoyed, and it’s all in the train of thought. I have always known myself to jump to conclusions, but never tried to trace the thought process. The truth is, you can learn a lot from tracing thought, about values, priorities, relationships, etc. The following is an entirely true situation followed by an altogether quite insane train of thought, ending in a paranoid conclusion
My computer crashes
Thoughts:
1. 1.Crap I cannot get on Facebook, how annoying!
2. 2. Wait, all of my pictures are on the computer…
3. 3. I know I backed up most of them, but what about my Africa pictures?
4. 4. If I start crying over this my brothers will say I am dramatic.
5. 5. I HAVE A DATA SHEET DUE FRIDAY!
6. 6. I can just use my mom’s computer, no big deal, calm down.
7. 7. We might move this week though, if so, her computer wouldn’t be plugged in yet
8. 8. I don’t want to move.
9. 9. What if I do bad on this Data Sheet and it brings my grade down?
10. 10. When Syracuse said I have to maintain my grades through the end of the year, how closely must I maintain them?
11. 11. What if they tell me the acceptance was a mistake?
In this case, I went from a crashed computer to anxiety about a college experience that is still seven or eight months away. The in between thoughts highlight the value I place on what my family thinks of me, and my academic success.
Carly- I often find myself empathizing with the characters in One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest(which is a little scary, but whatever). I experienced a similar situation to you last year during the Harriet Jacobs essay. My computer broke, with the almost- finished essay on it. When something so big is due, it is a bit unsettling to lose the computer. therefore, I completely understand your concern.
ReplyDeleteCarly, I have also experienced a computer crash, so I totally understand where you're coming from. I too lost all my pictures, and although I was able to get back some of them, I had a mental break down. I didn't realize how much I relied on my computer until it broke, and I had to borrow my mom's for a couple months. It's not the same, but in the end everything worked out. Keep a positive attitude and you'll be fine!!!
ReplyDeleteCarly, I think everyone can sympathize with you on this one. Computer problems seem so devastating, and they really are in most cases. It frightens me a little to think about how much society would suffer if there was a major computer crash or something. I love technology, but sometimes I worry people have become too dependent on it.
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